Another Chance Wasted

I hope this fan endures my weight,
This rope doesn’t break,
When I hang on it,
This heavy chair,
Displaces when I push it,
My heartbeat, body,
Never felt so high,
A dead calmness,
Noose around my neck,
Ready to die,
Ready to escape,
I can feel the death,
Black, dark, dope,
Spreading his arms,
To welcome me,
I’m a little afraid,
This is the moment I was waiting for,
These beautiful people,
Think I’m a happy man,
They got me on my knees,
They say I better watch myself,
Fuck this bad mean world,
Why I’m not killing me?
This rope is waiting for me,
I’m a coward,
Another chance Wasted.

I told my mom that I’m going out,
She didn’t asked where I’m going?
My sweet mom,
Thinks I’ll be back in few hours,
Sorry mom, I can’t live like this,
Sorry that I never told you,
What I’m going through,
I don’t want to hurt you.

I walked to the nearest station,
To try my luck,
This time a final goodbye,
I’m crying like hell,
My throat feels sore,
My face turns red,
Sobbing because of my feelings,
Took a deep breath,
Laid down on the track,
Wind is blowing real fast,
Touching my tears,
Waiting for the train,
I can hear the horn,
These tracks start shaking,
A weird excitement,
The train passes me by,
From other track,
It’s been 2 hours,
Why the fuck this train is not coming,
Crying for myself,
Another chance Wasted.

It’s hard to realise,
Why I’m so upset,
Sitting on the floor,
Crying so much more,
I’m a loser,
I got teased from head to toe,
Sometimes I feel I’m afraid of happiness,
I deserve this pain,
A story behind every tear,
How long do I have to live?
Why someone will love me,
A boy with disturbing life,
Hideous myself.

I was finding my books,
And I found ratkill,
I feel sorry for all the rats,
That this cube had killed them,
I’m sure their life would be much better,
Better then mine, worth living,
Holding this ratkill,
Wondering how to eat,
I fill the glass with water,
Almost ready to taste this,
Son! Oh is that my mom’s voice?
Oh no I’m busted,
She’s gonna be so mad at me,
But mom is smiling,
She rubbed my shoulder,
Thanked me for finding ratkill,
Cause there are so many rats in the house,
I wish I could be a rat,
Atleast there would be a guarantee,
Guarantee of death,
Another chance Wasted.

I’m standing at the edge of my patience,
I can’t hold it anymore,
Everyday the same losses,
Thinking why to waste words,
Why to waste breath,
Why to waste emotions,
Why to waste life,
No one knows who I’m,
I’m not the person you think you see,
Cause I’ve got demons inside of me,
I may have a smile on my lips,
But broken heart inside.

One last time,
Blade in my hands,
I saw this on tv,
Easiest way to die,
This blade will erase all my pain,
Pushed blade against my skin,
Deep red blood, flowing away through from my wrist,
I finally made it, this will be the end,
The final tear I cry,
The final thought,
I wanna die, my soul is so old,
I can’t move my hand,
Laying down on the floor,
Death welcoming me with open arms,
Oh boy death is so charming,
Nobody loves me anymore,
After a few days I wake up,
Nurse is changing bandage,
I’m alive,
Another chance Wasted.

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Confident (Demi Lovato New Album Announcement)

Pop superstar Demi Lovato just revealed the title, cover art and track listing of her Fifth coming album via Twitter which is scheduled to release this October. Demi is killing the game since summer by releasing the epic summer anthem Cool for the Summer which is currently charting at #16 in Hot 100. Lovato was also announced as 2015 Video Music Award performer, premiering this Sunday. Demi took twitter this morning to announce the title of her highly anticipated LP, “CONFIDENT”. Yes! This is the title of her new record. She also Instagram the Picture of cover art captaining “You ready for this? 😏 NEW ALBUM OCTOBER 2015 #Confident”.  Lovato is advocate of positive body image and since the start of this era she is confident in showing her skin without worrying about haters and she also covered the  September issue Cosmopolitan Magazine. Which somehow maybe the reason behind this title? The record is scheduled to release in October, 2015. A release date is yet to be announced.

Demi announced the title in very creative way. Some of her closest friends in the industry revealed the tracklist throughout the night by mentioning the track number and it’s title. Wilmer Valderrama, Jennifer Lopez,  Iggy Azalea, Nick Jonas, Kim Kardashian, Ryan Seacrest, Bea Miller, Hailee Steinfeld, Perez Hilton, Christina Perri and Adam Lambert announced the tracklist.
The Track Listing of the record is below with two major collaborations. Hot 100 #1 rapper Iggy Azalea and rising rapper/pop artist Sirah, who is well known for her collaborations with Skrillex and the hit single “Bangarang”.

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Track listing..
1. “Confident”
2. “Cool For The Summer”
3. “Old Ways”
4. “For You”
5. “Stone Cold”
6. “Kingdom Come” (featuring Iggy Azalea)
7. “Waitin For You” (featuring Sirah)
8. “Wildfire”
9. “Lionheart”
10. “Yes”
11. “Father”
12. “Stars”
13. “Mr. Hughes”
(Source for tracklist: http://demilovato.com/)

The coverart is very hot and edgy, I’m not a makeup expert but the Demi’s makeup in cover is dark and showing her confidence. She has her right hand pressed against her head and her left hand is positioned with the thumb hooked into the top of her briefs. SEXY!!
There are only 13 tracks in the album and there are no plans for deluxe edition. But we need more because we waited for more than two years for new music.
So what do you guys think about the album art and tracks? Are you excited about collaborations? What is the song you’re most excited about?

Cool For The summer (Review)

Pop diva Demi Lovato just released her highly anticipated Single “Cool For the Summer” from her fifth coming Album. The Single is much hyped since its announcement and it’s actually worth the excitement of her fans. The song is trending worldwide everyday in twitter since last five days and is still trending. This song is defiantly different from any song Lovato did before. Lovato did experiment with this new sound and all I can say is it’s really exciting and refreshing. Demi tried this mature sound before with her previous records like Neon lights and Who’s That Boy but Cool for the Summer is truly the next level. The song is really hot and has super upbeat rock music which is showcase by Demi’s vocals. No doubt the song is produced the music genius Max Martin and Savan Kotecha. The song is result of musical independence given by her new labels Island/republic records which was not given by her previous record label Hollywood records.

The song starts with slow piano music and underwhelming lyrics. The Pre-chorus “Got a taste for the cherry, I just need to take a bite, don’t tell your mother” shows Demi’s new style which is very bold and likable. The Electro-rock chorus takes the song to another level.  Verses are sluty and little horny followed by sexual chorus which is the highlight of the song. “Take me down into your paradise, Don’t be scared cause I’m your body type, Just something that we wanna try” are my favorite Lines from the song.

This song is the next level of Demi’s music carrier, showing the versatility of Demi’s to singing abilities. I think it’s a smart single choice for first single, because we already know lovato’s vocal abilities, this time we need a song which we can jam too and this song is such a Bop. Song is produced by hitmarker Max Martin which effectively combined Demi’s vocals, sexual lyrics and catchy music into a masterpiece.

Demi’s first single always creates buzz and this song is going to slay your summer thought it’s not as good as monster track Heart Attack but it’s a perfect summer anthem. There is no song like this jam out there right now, so it’s defiantly going to stay for a while at top. As a whole this song is refreshing, got a new sound plus blessed with Lovato’s vocals and Max Martin produced. Cool For the Summer is better than anything you’d expected from the song. If you’re have a summer party or you need a song to jam to this season this single is for you. Single is exciting, refreshing, sassy, bold, danceable and bless to your ears. I’m going end by saying I’m already liking Demi’s new sound and I can’t wait further for the full record. So go and download it, link below.

Singer: Demi Lovato
Title: Cool For the Summer
Genre: Electro-Pop, Pop-Rock, EDM
Writers: Demi Lovato, Max Martin, Ali Payami, Alexander Erik Kronlund and Savan Kotecha
Producers: Max Martin and Savan Kotecha
Label: Hollywood, Island and Republic
Release date: 1st July, 2015

Reverse

It’s 6 AM in the morning. Raj just heard the alarm clock, he wants to sleep but today is a big day for his wife at office. She is going out of the city for a big office deal for 3 days. He has  to make breakfast for her. He goes off the bed, puts up his panty and rushes towards the bathroom. He opens the shower and removes his bra and panty to take a bath. He cleans himself properly including his vaginal part because he had sex last night. After his bath, he is looking at his wardrobe thinking what he should wear. He picks up a pink frock with red polkadots. It’s his favorite colour and his wife gave him this dress last year on their 5 year anniversary. Her wife is a working woman and works at an advertising company in the city. She is very supportive towards Raj and is very open minded. She is a responsible woman, very dominant and bossy but she loves Raj alot.  On the other side Raj is very sweet and calm by nature. He takes care of home. He makes food, cleans the house, clothes, takes grocery and all household stuff. He is a good husband and very innocent. They both shifted Delhi last year because of Ria’s job. Well Ria is Raj’s wife name. They bought an apartment the day Ria got her transfer letter. They’re very happy together.

It’s 8am, Raj cooked breakfast and he is arranging the food on the dinner table and getting ready to drop her wife station. In meantime Ria is getting ready and buttoning up the buttons of her shirt that  Raj picked up for her while she was taking bath.

Now Ria is ready and packing up her bag. Raj calls her to take breakfast. After few minutes they both had breakfast and now they’re ready to go to the station. Raj is pretty upset because he is going to miss her and will not see her face for 3 days. Ria notices this sadness on Raj’s face and she calls him to sit next to her on sofa. Ria kisses him and makes Raj agree for a quick sex. Raj feels really good and excited about what’s going to happen because he knows that he is not going to get touched by his partner for the next 3 days.

Ria pulls down her zipper and picks out her dick. It’s already hard, also Raj is so ready for it he removes his frock and pulls down his panty. Raj and Ria had quick sex. Now they both are happy and satisfied. They both arrange their face, hair and dress to get ready for the station. Raj is reversing the car whereas Ria is locking the main door. Now Raj drives to the station real fast so that Ria doesn’t miss her train. They reach the station in right time. Ria gives Raj a tight hug and thanks him for taking care of her. Ria now moves towards her train.

Raj is home now. He cleans the table, home and dishes. He decides to sleep for a while because he is very tired after doing household things. It’s 6pm now, Raj is alone and missing her wife. He walks towards the kitchen to make tea for himself. After a few moments, Raj gets a call from his friend Deep to invite him at his bachelor party. Raj gets ready for the party because he got nothing else to do now.

It’s 9pm. Raj is ready in his tight black skirt and high heels. He takes his car keys and drives to the party venue. Now he can hear loud party music. He parks his car and gets into the party. He hugs all his friends, gets drunk and dances like hell. It’s party time all the men and women are enjoying the last day of Deep as a bachelor. Raj forgets all his sorrows and is enjoying the night with his friends. All men are looking gorgeous with their make up while girls are busy dancing. Raj is drunk like hell.

It’s 2am, party just ended. Raj says goodnight to all his buddies and gets into his car. He is driving towards his apartment and soon he realises car’s tire is flat. He gets out of the car on that very calm road. Now he can’t do anything cause he doesn’t have extra tier. He calls a few friends but its of no use because everybody is drunk. He doesn’t know what to do. He looks around the road and no one is there. He is worried but scared too because he the only man alone on the road, he feels uncomfortable and gets scared because any woman can take the advantage of an alone man. It’s a woman world men get raped here and women are the rulers of this world. He doesn’t know what to do.

Raj ,  standing helpless on the side road with his flat car tire. Suddenly he sees a car coming towards him. He’s shocked when he sees 4 women in the car. He is really worried now cause they can rape him. This was the first thought that came into his mind. He helplessly asks girls if they can help him. One woman comes out of the car and starts checking out Raj. She starts touching him and Raj starts to shake like something wrong is about to happen. In calm voice he asks her “can you help me? My tire is puncher. ” She replies “Why so hurry? “. Raj gets more scared. He just wants to run out of that place but he can’t cause those women can catch him easily. He replied “Please leave me! Don’t do anything with me” But the intentions of those women  ain’t good.

Now all the three women get out of the car. Raj is shivering like hell. He thinks there is no way to go and these women will definitely rape him. But suddenly all four women start laughing and they tell him that they’re just playing with him. They won’t rape him. So don’t worry they will help him for sure. In the end Raj takes a deep breath and starts laughing with the other four women.

My point is, if there will be a parallel universe in which men have vagina and women dick. There will be no rapes or maybe less as compared to today’s world. So why in this world young girls, women get raped? I badly wanted to write this and I don’t have any intentions to hurt your feelings. Do you find any difference between the world in this story and the world you’re living in ? Ofcourse , you do. It’s a parallel world. A world , where women dominate over men whereas we , we live in a male dominating world. The story shows a world where the wife is working whereas the husband manages the household chores. A world in which women are respected more. More ? More than men. Anyway , let’s get to the point. Basically , the story shows that if we lived in a parallel universe , there would’ve been very little chances of rapes. Why can’t we just change our mentality and treat every women equally.

Some Unknown Thoughts

Today I’m not going to tell you  a story or motivate you. Today I just want to talk to you guys, about I don’t know what but I’m just writing what’s on my mind right now. I’m writing something after a whole month. A few people were asking for a new blog. I’m really grateful to the people who read my stuff and appreciate it. You know what? I write things when I’m pretty upset or feel down. Even though I’m upset, I never write anything about why or what let me down. People around me just think that I’m a happy person. And I am!
People here around me are just the ones with the narrow thinking, not everyone,  but there are a few who are enough to let you down. I know I’m totally not into these kind of stuff but you cannot ignore the people around you. I tried to ignore once before but I realised I have to live like this, with these people. Narrow thinking is like,  for instance ,  if a boy and a girl are talking, then they comment on them. Apparently, this thing actually happened with me. I used to talk to a girl, I kind of liked her. People started to take our names together. I thought the girl whom I used to talk  with liked me. But no! Again an example of small thinking, she found it inappropriate talking to me and started ignoring me. Wow! That moment I realised people only think about themselves and their image in public. This is the reason why I wrote about I used to like her. Maybe she is reading this right now? Whateves.

Aahh I don’t know what to say, cause I’m really out of words. I found out one of my friend is writing her own novel. Also a few of my friends told me that I inspired them to write blogs and stuff. This is really amazing and proud thing for me that I helped people to write and they actually write better than me.
A friend of mine is finally with the girl he loves , after 5 months. He was very happy the day she said ‘yes’. Why everyone wants a partner and why they can’t  they stay single? I’m single since last 2 years and trust me ,I’m happy. I’m not saying that it’s really important to get someone to love and then get loved.  But people’s desperation for love makes me laugh. If you have someone who loves you for no reason it’s the best thing but if u don’t have any why are you crying for it? You will get one , oneday. Instead ,  love people who love you and spread love.

Last few weeks were not happy or exciting for me but they were  not even sad. They were just empty. Till now I don’t know why I was feeling that maybe sometimes people get low for no reason. It’s not that I  was depressed. I was doing regular things that I do daily. I was joking and enjoying with my friends but something inside me was killing me. I  don’t know if i have fixed it now but I’m no more feeling empty. One of my old buddies helped me to get through this shit. He lives out of station and he didn’t tell me he was coming here. The moment he reached the station he called me which was a complete surprise for me and I was jumping with joy. I think he filled my emptiness. Sometimes we just need some other person to make us feel good than the people we use to sit daily with.

Hmm I’m done for now & I don’t know what I’ve said above but I’m feeling light. I don’t have something inspiring to say and maybe while reading this you were feeling bored. I just wanted to write something useless to feel a little free. You don’t know but I’m feeling good right now. Even though I don’t know I’m going to publish this or not.